How I Never Want to Feel Again… And What I Am Doing About It.

So, this is kinda hard to write. It has been on my mind since I had an eye appointment last week. At that appointment I was told that I could have swollen optic nerves and they want to do more testing. They haven’t said what could be done about it, just that they would send me to a specialist if that came back positive.

So me being me and not taking my own advice I start googling what could happen and what the cause could be. The three most common causes are brain tumors (I was evaluated for those when migraines started happening so none of those), high blood pressure (every time it is checked I have perfect blood pressure) and obesity (Bingo!!)

This completely knocked me down, mentally. I have been trying to lose weight this year and one week it will go up and the next down and it is discouraging. My sweet husband knew I wanted to lose weight, despite his claims he likes my looks the way I am, also knows I love chocolate and Diet Dr. Pepper and made sure we had a steady supply in the house because I like them, so I would help myself and literally have no self control, especially when emotional! It doesn’t help that I know better and that makes me feel more like a failure and then I want to eat more!

And then, I got our pictures back from the sweetheart banquet and I about cried when I saw them. My face is so round and I looked like I was about to pop out of my dress it was so tight. I told my mom I literally regretted wearing it. I don’t ever want to feel like that again.

My husband and I have talked and we are going to work together to lose weight. His knee has recently started hurting as well and he has decided he needs to lose some as well. I am not quite sure what plan we are going to do but I am leaning toward a love child of keto and 21 day fix. I like the idea of keto but the way most people do it, I think needs more vegetables.

Right now, our plan is to meal plan before we go to the store and get some more movement in our day. I realize we cannot change everything in one day. We are starting small, adding more vegetables and not buying soda. When we get that down pat, we will start working on other steps.

What is the worst feeling in the world for you and how do you fix it?

How to Be a Good Friend

In today’s society, it seems a friend is someone you have on Facebook. There are very few people having personal connections anymore without any kind of technology between them. But it is those personal connections that are so fulfilling and rewarding. Online connections can leave you wanting and lonely because it is extremely hard to fully know someone from just their presence online.

So how are you able to be a good friend and make those personal connections?

1. Pray for your friend.

There are so many people going through so many things that just need prayer. Sometimes there is nothing you can do for that person but to pray for them. Some of my friends will know my life circumstances and I get random texts just telling me they are praying for me and it makes me feel so not alone. It makes me feel good knowing I was important enough to someone to be on their mind and they prayed for me.

2. Make time for them.

Even if it is five minutes to send them a card or text letting them know you were thinking about them. Have lunch or coffee dates. I had lunch yesterday with a friend that I haven’t got to spend much time with lately and it was so nice just to be able to catch up. We see each other at church but there is not enough time to actually catch up. We laughed and spilled our guts about what is bothering us and left encouraged. Making time for someone doesn’t have to cost a lot of money either. It truly is the little things in life.

3. Listen to them when they talk.

I have been with people before that I was talking or telling a story and you could tell they were not listening. They were either on their phones or completely interrupted with their own points and stories and it plain just hurts your feelings. When someone is talking, it shows you care when you actually listen to them, and remember what they said. If they are telling you something is wrong, follow up with them the next day or next few days. It will make them feel special and they are more likely to listen to you when something is going on with you.

Friendship is a two way street. To have friends, you have to be friendly. Most of the time you are attracted to people you have things in common with. Build on that and you never know how deep that friendship could go!!

How do you make a good friend?

Where I Am Starting

So, I went to college to get a degree in Dietetics and Nutrition. I know all the right things someone should eat and how to spot a fad diet a mile away.  I love reading nutrition research and seeing what is new and what could help up be our healthiest selves.

But up until this point, I haven’t really done a lot to actually put that knowledge to good use. I am starting from a place where I am too heavy for my frame by almost 100 pounds. I am starting to feel the effects of carrying too much weight. My back almost always hurts. I have problems with my hips (years of clumsiness and hard falls started that but the weight has made it worse). I have migraine headaches regularly.

At our bridal shower in the summer.

I get told a lot that I don’t look like I am that heavy and I do carry my weight pretty evenly but I don’t feel good. There are self esteem issues coming from this as well. It is hard to feel good about yourself if you don’t feel good. You start to resent your body, when in my case, if I had taken better care of it, it wouldn’t have these issues.  ( I know there are people who have health issues through no fault of their own. I am strictly talking about my particular case.) I hate taking full body pictures anymore because I don’t want anyone to see how bad I have let it get.

Taking pictures of the boutique Facebook page.

So I ordered a Wellness Goal Guide from Cultivate What Matters ( I am in no way an affiliate, just absolutely love their products) and worked through it and came up with the main goal that I want to lose 1.5 pounds a week.  That seemed like a doable goal.  Breaking it down to small increments over time makes it easier. To start doing that I have cut out sugar and soda.

At an anniversary party for a sweet couple!

The first week was not perfect but I lost 2.5 lbs. The second week I ended up with a huge cold/virus thing that knocked me into the bed for three days at least and I am still recovering. That week I lived off of macaroni, grape juice and lots of water. I didn’t lose any weight but I didn’t gain either so that’s a win in my book. This week is going better, so far no sugar or soda except what is in the grape juice.

Our latest Christmas card.

What are your goals this year? Are you discouraged with where you are health wise? Do you want to join me in this journey of becoming our best selves?

Hi and Why

Hi everyone!! I am Kim. I am a nutritionist with the local WIC office which means I talk to women daily about how to eat when they are pregnant, how to take care of themselves post-partum, how to breastfeed, and how to feed their children so that they grow up to be healthy. But lately, I have felt  a deeper calling to help women live well, not just nutritionally but physically, emotionally and spiritually.

This also means me. I have not always done the best at taking care of myself and while I am generally healthy, I see myself ending up very unhealthy if I don’t change my ways. So this is also a place for me to be accountable.

I am also a wife, daughter, sister, aunt and friend. Each of those roles mean a great deal to me and I want to be the best at them as I can be so I will also be talking about how we can better at those roles in life. This includes recipes, beauty secrets, relationship challenges, shopping tips, and fun activities.

I hope you will enjoy this journey of living life to the fullest and living it well. After all, we only get one shot at this thing called life!!